I hate starting new things.

I am always intimidated by the beginnings of things. Especially as a writer. Whether you've written a novel or a book report, you'll probably agree that most times the hardest part is gettting over the hurdle of that first sentence. And I would venture to say that this first-thought-phenomena is entirely self-induced. Its not that the beginning of a project is the most difficult part, necessarily. Its that before we really start the writing process we have all the oppurtunity in the world to doubt ourselves without the reassurance of a steady set rhythm and tone.

A year ago I made the decision to finally go ahead and pursue professional writing. My intentions are to eventually become a young adult fiction author. For as long as I can remember I have been writing, and from what I've been told, writing reasonably well. More important than any talent I may or may not obtain however, may be the sense of fulfillment I feel from writing. Its not easy, and I have SO much to learn. And as I've stated, I hate starting new things. But new things become old things after theyre started, and I am someone who appreciates the comfort of the old. Perhaps soon this blog along with all of my other recently ventured writing pursuits will feel as warm and familiar as an old sweatshirt.

In truth, every journey begins with a single step, every story with a single word. If I don't start now, I fear I never will. I may hate starting new things, but this an old dream, too comforting and close to ever give up.